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Mon, 02 Jun 2008 21:29:34 GMT

i'm moving to manhattan in a week!

Friday, August 17, 2007

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 23:46:16 GMT

COLLEGE I AM READY TO BE FINISHED WITH YOU

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 20:32:19 GMT

summer is over. i don't feel rested at all, in fact, i feel restless. what the hell am i going to do with the rest of my life? and more importantly, what the fuck is wrong with my bike?

oh, life.

Friday, March 30, 2007

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 21:56:33 GMT

UH HELLO MY PARENTS ARE THINKING OF MOVING TO SWITZERLAND

best news of a lifetime! if they actually go through with it, i don't think i'll transfer to BU. i'll stay, quite happily, at mizzou and then oh, you know, FLY OUT TO SWITZERLAND FOR BREAKS.

life is so good.
oh ps, then we can all backpack through europe. STARTING IN MY OWN BACKYARD.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 15:18:08 GMT

fuck this shit i am so tired of and burned out on journalism (damn you, best school of journalism ON EARTH). summer cannot come quickly enough!

Friday, March 09, 2007

Fri, 09 Mar 2007 19:23:20 GMT

03/06/07

Last night I went to bed at midnight and subsequently was laying awake in bed at seven am. It's funny. I don't remember waking up, but my first thought when my own consciousness dawned on me was
"Why am I laying in bed, here, in this quiet cocoon, and which class am I missing right now?"
I rolled over and saw that it was 7:08. No class. No alarms. What. The. Hell.

The point of all of this is that it's been a good morning. I ate breakfast, read the Times (what an excellent Arts section today, really), took a shower and am now sitting in bed listening to old U2 and reading The New Yorker. Is this what it's like to be normal? I kind of like it.

I have to go work as an EMT tonight--I imagine it seems worse than it is if the hours immediately prior are characterized by a surplus of caffeine and a lack of sleep. Maybe tonight will be different.

The memories I construct for myself from situations are skewed. The other night we got a GSW call, self inflicted point-blank .45 bullet trauma to the neck. There was blood everywhere. The first image that I can conjure up of the situation is not the way his severed larynx flapped violently with every forced breath but rather the little patterns the blood made in the spaces between the tiles on the floor. Intersecting maroon lines, parallel and perpendicular, coming together to march across the kitchen.

What a strange life I lead.

Monday, March 05, 2007

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 10:08:00 GMT

hello, i am really busy and also an EMT now, which mostly means that i spend hours kind of huddled in the corner of an ambulance, horrified a vast majority of the time.
also, i have been still awake to watch the sun rise every day for a week now. it's kind of soothing. i would like to eventually wean myself from sleep, perhaps.

right now i am working on a seven-page russian translation of the queen of spades by pushkin. also, i am eating gouda with rosemary olive oil triscuits. i am not doing so badly, i would like to think.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 17:40:52 GMT

errrrr

Friday, January 19, 2007

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 06:12:47 GMT

SHIT i am already so overwhelmed by my classes and i have not even been to honors chem II yet. fuck.
i already have five hours of russian homework, a quiz in EMT class, an emergency room clinical rotation to attend, and a parking ticket. fuck shit fuck fuck goddamn it fuck shit.

in other news, i am taking a class called "films of woody allen" and it is wonderful.

edit:
FUCK THIS SHIT I AM DROPPING CHEM
in favor of a course called "self and society" where one of the books is a memoir written by a former member of the crips. apparently i do not want to be a doctor that badly.
SHIT, FUCK, ETC.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Tue, 02 Jan 2007 06:55:32 GMT

I have this feeling, nestled somewhere deep in my bones, that 2007 is going to be an amazing year.
It certainly started off well enough.

All of my new year's resolutions are trite: work out more, do well next semester, find a job i actually like (which will likely be EMT-ing), find true love (haha um), etc etc
I would also, i think, like to live more like the way i want to. Does that make sense? For example, i'd like to be completely honest, and go on adventures to try lots new things. I'd also like to learn how to play poker better.

So we'll see how all of that goes.

BASICALLY, MY POINT IS.
Go ahead, 2007. Astound me.

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